Monday, Jun. 17, 2002 | 3:23 p.m.

i've spent the day writing thank you cards. i don't feel thankful anymore.

tonight i get to see brand new with luke. and i don't remember the last time i was this excited about something. i'm counting down the minutes.

on thursday i will let go of haylie. i don't know what that means. so i cried as i wrote her goodbye letter. i miss her more than i let on. i mourn over this relationship more than anyone will ever know.

i'm sick of people thinking that they understand the way it is between me and her. because they don't. they can't. and the most exciting thing about college next year is that no one will know about this bullshit unless i tell them.

no matter what i say. i love that girl. forever and ever.

there are 32 minutes till i get to play. happy fun night to me.