Tuesday, Dec. 10, 2002 | 9:22 p.m.

another list accompanies these tears tonight.

i hate:

wasting my time with you/getting mad over nothing/threatening to do things i really have no intention of doing

bad dreamsthinking something's wrongsadness

not responding when you deserve a response.hanging up.pretending to be upset just to get you to react

falling short&being less&questioning

the tone of my voice-selfishness-ungrateful hearts

disappointment|doubt|sleep outside your arms

when will i forget me enough to find you and see that you are just better.

i don't want to cause problems and i don't want to be bad for you. i want this to be easy and fun and worth it. i want you to be happy and better because of me. forgive the thousand things i don't know how to say. i'm sorry.

i love you, it's as simple and as complicated as that.