Wednesday, Mar. 20, 2002 | 7:02 p.m.

and i'm dreading it.

granted, 8 of those days i will be on spring break in gulf shores. but. i will still miss him.

seventeen days, baby. that's a muther long time.

no doubt i will turn to my diary more during this time.

sometimes i don't realize how much i need you in my life every day. i don't like knowing i can't pick up the phone whenever i want and call you. i don't like starting my day without an e-mail from you waiting in my inbox.

i. hate. life. without. you.

baby, you are my star. i love you.

oh God. grant me peace.