i envision me on a beach. with duct tape covering my mouth. my hands and feet are bound with rope. the tide swallows my ankles now. i wave to you when i see you. yes, there are you. sinking. into the depths of the sea. i'm held captive by my undying love for you in spite of the way you mistreat my kind heart. a tear rolls down my cheek. i'm watching you drown.
i don't care if it hurts. i want to have control. i want a perfect body. i want a perfect soul. i want you to notice when i'm not around.
