Thursday, Apr. 25, 2002 | 2:38 p.m.
today i made a move. i took a baby step. but i went forward, nonetheless. i was afraid of telling her myself. so i went to her other half, the one who filled my position when i was let go. i thought i was being a good friend. i displayed a greater amount of maturity than i knew i possessed. because i know that it will be sweeter coming from her instead of me. i know she will take it better. i think i made the right choice. i don't know what will come of this. and i don't really care. because at least now she knows about the rumors. and at least there is no way she can think i am passing judgment on her if they are actually true. because i had the decency to let someone else handle it--a girl who, as hard as it is for me to admit, is better-equipped to deal with this than me, because she's on the inside, and i am on the outside, looking in.
i am proud of myself.