Monday, Apr. 29, 2002 | 6:36 p.m.

they don't try to keep secrets. they don't even whisper in front of me. now they just lay it all out.

i think i am invisible.

but at least now i have substantial evidence. at least now i know the truth and it didn't come from a girl who heard from a boy who knows a kid whose girlfriend was at the party. at least now i can be confident in what i write in the love letter i'll give her at graduation.

even with my greatest fears confirmed. i can't help but love her. i hurt for her. but i still want to wrap my arms around her and kiss her forehead and say to her.

"baby, i love you anyway."