Wednesday, Nov. 20, 2002 | 9:16 a.m.

id rather be cheated on than lied to. id rather be humiliated than have to search for the truth.

ive slept for ten hours two nights in a row.

last night hurt more than anything has in a long time. i wasnt kidding when i said i dont ever want to do that again. i cant handle it. and i dont want to lose you. plain and simple.

this song was meant for you.

and all the usual hearts to you, in everything that you do. you make me know ive got a lot to live for.